02 - Welp (backdated to the 24th)

[agelostdoll]

((ooc: had meant to put this up a few days ago but I had to clean a virus off my PC; sorry about that!))

[Asuka - the eyepatch'd one - comes onto the screen... and looking none too good. Pale, bags under her eye and shivering despite a blanket and a heavy jacket. Yeah. Even her voice is hoarse:]

Anyone wondering about that side effects thing... well, it's pretty fucking confirmed. I'm about three weeks in; haven't touched anybody. Said I would a while ago; experiment.

Fever, headaches, sleep disruption... I think I'm starting to hallucinate. I'm calling it off.

They're not lying about that.

Private text to greenteengenius

you want your scans make it quick

Private text to favored_four_eyes

could use a hand

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[Video]

[forevalone]

...Asuka, you look awful.

_{[Someone's worried. Yeah.]}

[agelostdoll]

Must be Tuesday.

[forevalone]

Tuesday?

...I HIT THE POST COMMENT BUTTON BY ACCIDENT THAT HAS NEVER HAPPENED BEFORE-

[agelostdoll]

...Never mind.

Don't worry about me; I can handle it. Just make sure you don't wind up doing the same thing I did on accident.

[the Shinji she remembers was a socially shy recluse and this one shows similar signs. Thus...]

LMAO it's okay I've done that before

[forevalone]

Ah, I won't...Kaworu-kun wouldn't let it happen, I think.

_{[He's kind of touchy feely without meaning to be.]}

[agelostdoll]

[she nods]

Keep an eye on him.

[forevalone]

What do you mean?

[agelostdoll]

He's an Angel Shinji, why do you think.

[forevalone]

...I know. He's a good person though, he just doesn't know a lot of things.

[agelostdoll]

Exactly. He's practically a child... with an AT field. I doubt he'd do anything intentionally, but I'd rather avoid trouble.

If something changes, there's nothing you nor I can do to stop him.

[forevalone]

Mm...I understand.

[agelostdoll]

Are you sure?

[forevalone]

Yes, I'm sure Asuka.

[agelostdoll]

[Asuka... sighs, running a hand through her hair. Having two confirmed Angels running around... doesn't put her at ease.]

There's a lot that he doesn't understand, that we don't understand it's-

[guh]

...Would you mind if I asked you why he died?

[forevalone]

_{[Of course he minds. It shows too, as a grimace on the boy's face, but it doesn't stop him from answering her.]}

...He was unable to resist his instincts like other Angels when he arrived at a certain level in NERV. Before he could go any further and trigger another Impact...he forced me to kill him.

...He died because I killed him. He died because he said humanity was worth dying for.

[agelostdoll]

...That's the thing, though.

The one from my world knows you; you specifically, not just the Shinji from mine. If he's the same person...

There's a contradiction here. In my world, he worked and piloted for NERV, even after everything. He'd have had plenty of opportunities to reach Central Dogma. Mari and I even fought him in Central Dogma. But he never did anything like that. It doesn't make sense.

[forevalone]

...Maybe he only meant to cause Third Impact? If...If I was the cause instead in your world then he would have had no point. I...I don't know. It doesn't make any sense. You're right.

But if he didn't have to die, if he could have controlled himself...then why did he ask that of me? Why did I have to do it?

[agelostdoll]

...It's not something I'd like to speculate on. Frankly, I don't think he's the type to lie. He's not exactly that subtle. There'll be a reason. Most likely, he thought it was necessary at that point. Only he'd know.

Everything he's doing he's doing for your sake, or at least, 'the sake of Shinji Ikari'. [the parallels are not lost on her and it is not making her comfortable with the idea.

She's long established it in her mind that this Shinji and the brat were different people. So did that mean, from the Angel's point of view, any Shinji Ikari would do? Could he even tell the difference?]

[forevalone]

...If the me from your world showed up, do you think he'd leave me for them? Even though he met me first?

[agelostdoll]

...

He'd probably try to save both of you. It's something you'd have to discuss with him, not me.

[forevalone]

If the me from your world showed up, would you try to kill him too?

[agelostdoll]

...

[well this is entering difficult territory. She has a lot of anger and hatred towards the name Ikari; talking to this one involves suppressing it to remain civil. Intellectually, she knows he's not the same person, so that's his defence from the darker parts of her mind.

But him asking her to bring up him and what she'd do... with the same voice, same face, same name... lines are going to get blurred. She knows this.

A very cold, very deliberate calm creeps into her words as she keeps herself very carefully neutral.]

Possibly.

I tried to kill you then because I thought you hadn't caused Third Impact yet; it was a chance to save billions of lives. If he's from before then, I will do it again. If he is not, it's too late anyway.

But I will not let him run away from the consequences of what he has done.

[forevalone]

Don't let him run away.

<sub>[Might sound funny coming from Shinji of all people, but he can't help but say it. He tells himself that enough and although he tries to follow his own advice, it's hard. Even though this other him isn't here, he can't help but feel disdain toward them. Shinji isn't very good at loving himself in the first place - after hearing what he'd caused in Asuka's world...he might as well be dead.

Of course, that's his own opinion, driven more so by the fact he can think somewhat clearly here and that Kaworu is alive. Maybe it's a bit biased and unfair, but at the moment he doesn't care.]</sub>

...Do you think it'd make a difference though? If it's possible for Kaworu-kun to know me and have existed in your world and the fact this place exists...what's to stop the possibility of him returning to where he came from if you killed him?

[agelostdoll]

[to be fair, the account of him he's getting is from Asuka. Who is also, shall we say, biased and unfair.]

...

Force him to stay here, you mean?

It's possible... but there, the situation's different. All the Angels where you're from are dead right? So there's no more left to fight. That wasn't the case at Near Third Impact.

He'd made his decision to fight. It was actually kind of funny, you know? Almost as soon as we woke him up, he was begging to help out with Unit 01. As if we'd be that crazy.

[forevalone]

...Why wake him up?

_{[Begging to fight? That didn't exactly sound like himself at all. The last thing at this point that Shinji wanted to do was fight anything.]}

If he was such a threat why was he kept alive in the first place? Why didn't you just keep him asleep?