*Close, but not quite. It's hard to say what she wants, really. She's aware other people consider her pretty or "pretty for a troll"; she does a pretty good job of convincing herself they're right most of the time while deep down believing otherwise. And then there's the guilt of realizing the parts of her that are pretty are the ones that look "more human", and the fact that trolls are big and imposing and have a reputation for violence due to the behavior of the traumatized initial wave of goblinized people, and just the general problems arising from metahumanity as a whole still being more than half human and trolls being the least like that image in general.*

Yeah. I mean my mom told me about my grandma's death once; happened a couple years before I was born. She had heart problems and the shock of goblinizing killed her. So the genes were there, but they skipped my mom so I didn't think it would happen to me, and she never seemed to think so either.